Not So Much Writers Block As Writers Over Load

Well I am currently developing  ideas for my latest writing project. Only problem is I keep having lots of different ideas all at once. Currently I can barely contain the verocity and wealth of ideas I am having. They all seem good and I write them all down as soon as I get to a scrap of paper and a pen. I dream of writing a book with one of them, and know I have to focus on one, I am nowhere near good enough to write lots of different stories at once. 

I always find it  amazing how someone can create a whole world for themselves and have numerous stories within it (big shout out to Terry Pratchett’s there). I dream of doing something similar but fear being a copy cat, or going where everyone has gone before. 

It takes something unique to make it stick. I have found that it doesn’t matter so much about the genre but more about having something unique within the genre. A dynamite story that has the audience hooked. 

One of my ideas involves a created world if you like and I would like to think I could use it to create many stories asPratchett’s does, but not ripping anyone off.

Another idea involves a real passion of my sci fi. I love both sci fi and astronomy (along with lots of other things as I am not a complete fruit). This idea though is not set too far forward and would not venture much outside our solar system. The infancy of manned space exploration with an initial horror theme.

My third idea has to do with exploring the supernatural and death. Not quite as morbid or mundane as you would think and I hope I am not completely suspending all the laws of science on this one . Making it hopefully believable. 

I have more but will save it for another time. For now dear readers thanks for reading, I must npw decide where my focus lies, and which story to develop first.

Nature vs Nuture

A question I want to pose.

                        How much of everything is nature and how much is nuture? More specifically how much of who you are and how you act is down to the way you were brought up, and whe does that stop and your own nature take over.

See I have mulled over this for a good long while as I have thought about why I am the way I am. As this is the first real post I write on word press I thought I would show how deeply I think about things. Not that I am suggesting I have a modecum of intelligence or anything like that, but I do think deeply about lots of things.

In a type of Sherlock Holmes way I will give a brief synopsis of myself. I am early 30’s overweight and this fact is a constant issue in my life. I have a mediocre degree and passed up two significant opportunities to become a teacher in my late teens and eary 20’s. This causes me anguish and I have worked mediocre jobs since not really advancing anywhere within them. I have a mortgaged house on a council estate sandwiched between 2 council houses. We have had trouble with people on the estate in the shape of abuse and vandalism, and now have issues with the neghbours on one side. I blame myself for this as I remember commenting it wouldn’t be so bad living here. Again this causes me anguish. I do have children, 2 by site but when asked I always say either two living children or 4. This suggests we have had a tragedy in the past and I want to keep the memory of our dead children alive. On the whole I have many resentments and they always seem to crop up first before the positive aspects of my life. It would suggest I am a particularly negative and resentful person.

Now is this nature or nuture? Well my mum has always had a positive outlook towards her children and always encouraged us to go out there and work. It did’t matter what we did but working and not being a doleite is the most important thing. When I expressed a desie to go to univeristy my mum nutured and supported me, and when I chose the institution my mum took the day off work to go to the open day and make sure I was sure that this was what I wanted. My dad has always had a negative and half empty outlook on life. Emphasising the negative aspects of the world we live in. That being said my dad has offered me the greatest support and levellist head in times of tragedy. A phrase I will now mentions gave me comfort during my darkest days, it was simply this.  ‘I don’t know how your feeling, I know how I feel, I know how I think you might be feeling, but I don’t really know.’ That simply sentence meant more to me during the darkest days than what anyone else said during that period.

As I have gotten older I have learned to respect my father a whole lot more, and I also appreciate what he sacrificed for us growing up. The hours he worked and the job he hated. Nothing spectacular but he helped to keep food on our table.

So to the more positive aspects. I have a job nothing spectacular but apart from a 7 month period when I had a full mental breakdown I have always worked and earned. Even when I was unemployed I only claimed benefits for 3 months when we could no longer cope on one wage.

I passed up 2 guilt edged opportnities it is true to say, but I did get a degree.

Where we live is awful and we have had problems galore. However we are on the property ladder. We have a repayment mortgage that reduces our arrears every month. The house is in positive equity and we will be successful in selling it and moving on to something better eventually. Until then it remains the 4 walls that I house my family in, and with so may homeless people out there that is something to be greatful for.

So in closing nature or nuture? What do I think?

It is true to say that somethings you learn as a child stay with you all your life. From my parents I learnt that I always have to work whatever that is don’t scrounge, and only claim what you are entitled to. However unfair that may seem when the government takes care of those at the top and bottom, but constantly shaft those in the middle. I also learnt to be respectful to everyone, and stand up for yourself don’t let people push you around, and finish something if they do start. I was always forced to clear my plate as a child and the portions were too big.   

That is nuture however I also feel whatever your start in life, and whatever you learn in childhood there comes a point where you have to take responsibility for your own actions. The person who passed up opportunities is me, the person who compulsively over eats is me. The house is a bit of both, my eagerness to buy, mixed with the wrong advice plus the fact we were coming to the end of our tenancy in rented and the landlord wanted his house back!! For me I will not blame others for my actions as an adult. I know the differences the between right and wrong and ultimately I will learn from my actions and things will come good eventually.

 

Thanks for reading my opinions are my own!!

 

Hi

Very brief description of me.

31 very fat, curly hair (all my own and on my head).

Aspire to write and provide for my family!!

Been quite negative but aspire to be positive.

Thanks for now T!!!!!!!!!